Too tired to sleep

Have you ever been too tired to sleep? I am there. Even as I type this, the letters are all blurring together. Of course, I've had a few Killians, so that might be some of it, but I really think that sleep is just eluding me.

The past couple of days have been very stressful, but thankfully, all is well at the moment. Tim's dad had a heart attack yesterday (was it really just yesterday???). He should be coming home tomorrow. They had to put 2 stints in and he'll be on Plavix and aspirin for the rest of his life. There's 2 more stints to go, but they are going to wait 3-4 weeks for that.

Don is a great man and I love him very much. He's a 6 foot teddy bear with a beautiful smile and a wonderful heart. (Aside from the the physical damage.) Mortality creeps up on us when we least expect it. I don't have any plans for children in the future, but if I did, Don would be the only grandfather my children would know. I was very blessed in that I had not only all 4 grandparents, but my great-grandmother in my life well into my 20s. Now that I am on the downward slide toward 40, I am suddenly realizing that my children (should we ever decide to have any) will have 2 wonderful grandmothers, 1 grandfather and 1 great-grandfather.

I don't want this post to be all maudlin...it's just that I hadn't really given a whole lot of thought to this. I realized that when I met Tim that my dad would never know the wonderful man that I have been blessed with; but until today, I'd never really given thought to the notion that my children (which really, I will probably never have...I'm a wonderful Aunt and I love the lack of responsibility and worry that comes with that role) will never know my dad. They will not know Granny and Papaw Brown or Granny Goldy. How sad is that?

Now this is really sounding too depressing, but it has been a stressful couple of days and these are the thoughts that are keeping me awake when I have had only a few hours of sleep over the past 2 days. Maybe just sharing the thoughts with cyberspace will help. So, my cyberfriends, there's a load off my mind. On to dreamland where everything is sunny and I'm amazingly thin!